Joined up Writing

Nothing At All

All this tenderness has come to nothing
All that we require is being re-arranged
I've no wish to look to the future
For my expectations will no doubt be changed

Just rolling along on the rest of the waves
My statements and strategies are quickly dismissed
Poisoned pens on invisible paper
Steel knuckles concealed by velvet fists

What is the chance of us living
Some of our simplest dreams?
Are all the structures we build here
Really as frail as they seem?

The dying are the lovers of this modern world
The power and glory survives
With radio-active bargaining
And the valuelessness of our lives

My turn to crumble
My turn to fall
From so very humble
To nothing at all

Weltschmerz

This is where silence runs its course
And sadness wipes its eyes upon us
We fall from a structure built on troubled minds
My world becomes iron
And grows as cold as winter

Soldiers in uniforms of nudity march over open hearts
Sweetly and sickly scented by roses
And your world is crushing you like those flowers
By scripts written into your skin with the ink of thorns

Ashen faces sink into silence
All lonesome trends brush shoulders
All of last night's degradation builds foundations on us both

Killing Time

Stumbling words
And stuttering lips
Make the sentence complete
A death sentence complete

Create hell out of hopelessness
Confirm the failure of it all

Falling and calling
Falling and crawling
A stick in the ground scratches your name
A scream in the darkness is searching
Again
And again

Watching eyes wait for sadness to rise
True superstitions combine and thicken
This poison that reaches my soul
This terror that blackens my soul

I must smile at your strategy
And laugh at your plan
And the execution of it all

Like death itself love is rotting inside of me
But there'll be no protection for you
You cannot hide me

I am cold on a bed of ice
But like seasons I know it will pass
It will always return again though
A summer of love is a momentary and transient thing
Winter will always return again

And I should have known
We were only killing time
Now you have chosen your killing time
Let's hope you make the kill in time

True Love Tales

Love is all we need
You said
As you held see in the confidence
of your bed

Tomorrow's not important
You said
but tomorrow's turned
into today instead!

And I wake each morning
feeling so ashamed
having fallen to emotions
that we both named

How shallow now
all that rubbish seems
Hearts once full
are bleeding dreams

Dreams that were reality
have now brought out
the worst in me

I don't want a part in this
the stinging touch
the poisoned kiss

The alibis
to keep us close
The lies you spit
when I need you most

Love is just a paradox
He loves me
He loves me not

A basic human need is such
to be able to destroy
with just one touch

Self Destruct

Suicide is an urban disease
Spread by people and places like these
A quick self-destruct from the 21st floor
A smell of gas through the kitchen door
A stab in the back from the workers and bosses
They're counting their gains as you count your losses —
As you count your losses

Blow the world apart with the press of a button
We all say it shouldn't but we know it will happen
Again and again like the rain and the ark
Onwards for ever, eternally dark —
Eternally dark

The grit in your eye soon enters your heart
And all that was strength is just falling apart
We're jumping from one bed and into another
Searching for something that we'll never discover —
Never discover

So we go on breeding — breeding contempt
From all of the repression that this has meant
If the bombs and the fire don't instantly kill
Then the greed from the ashes certainly will —
Certainly will

This place is not soy place, this place is not yours
We're set on self-destruct for no reason or cause
If the bombs and the fire don't instantly kill
Then the greed from the ashes certainly will —
Certainly will

Our Darkness

Through these city nightmares you'd walk with me
and we'd talk of it with idealistic assurance
that it wouldn't tear us apart

We'd keep our heads above the blackened water
but there's no room for ideals in this mechanical place
and you're gone now

Through a grimy window that I can't keep clean
Through billowing smoke that's swallowed the sun
you are nowhere to be seen

Do you think our desires still burn?
I guess it was desires that tore us apart
There has to be passion!
A passion for living
Surviving
and that means detachment

Everybody has a weapon to fight you with
To beat you with when you are down
There were too many defences between us

Doubting all the time
Fearing all the time
that like these urban nightmares we'd blacken each others skies

When we passed the subways
we tried to ignore our fate there
of written threats on endless walls
Unjustified cries carried in stifled calls

Would you walk with me now through this pouring rain?
It used to mingle with our tears
then dry with the hopes that we left behind
It rains even harder now